the journey.

So it's been awhile.

Yeah, yeah, yeah...

But I hopefully will be updating more frequently now.

This is my weight loss journey.


     So I started college this past month, and it's going great. I am participating in a program called The Biggest Winner, which is like the TV show called The Biggest Loser. I am so excited and plan on posting lots and lots about it. Today, I got a body assessment and blood work. I found out some pretty great things.
I currently weigh 216.2 pounds...which actually means I've lost a few pounds just walking around campus to my classes and stuff. And also that my old weight goals weren't great. If I lost 100 pounds I would be slightly underweight and I think I may have made those goals in a bad mindset. I wanted to be skinny so bad. I had this strange strange desire just to have my collarbone to be so visible that it simply looked like the bone with fabric or some cell-made, membranous curtain, stretched over, draping tightly. I felt pretty inferior, and that's some bad body image thinking right derr! I actually feel pretty good about myself now even though sometimes I am unsure. I probably only really need to lose 60 to 80 pounds, but I'm happy to start with just 15-30.
I don't need to be a stick.

I don't need to be a stick.
I just need to be healthy and happy with myself.
So I can be able to help make other people happy! :))))

It's going to be a good day.